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Falling rain drops that land on my window. Cries for help and then slip away. Wind that is scream for help, Through the Rustling of the leaves.
My heart was calling for help my beating. Torn and wound, Again and again. the blood that flow through my wrist. Create a puddle of hope and love. which i give up on it already. earth shakening. Sea water rising.
a sky so beautiful, it almost hurts. hurts so bad. i gave up on life, when the blade smoothly glides across my wrist. then i know. everything, have ended. the pain, the tears is all gone. as the rain drops continue to drop on my window panel. i close my eyes and listen to the rain drop singing, the final lullaby. that will cleanse my life. and i was gone...
-Sharalyn Z.
The night of the full moon. Snow falls in the town. With flakes that is brighter than white. And sky that is darker than black. Sounds of sorrow spread all over the place. The world which is this dark, Is making it so hard to breathe. Laying on my bed, Which is covered in broken dreams. Tiny crystals that was exposed. Came running down my cheek. The tears that mix with the blood on my wrist. Is the final price of self destruction. As i close my eyes. A familiar scene began unwinding in my head. A world that we dreamed of. Will be torned apart, Limb by limb. Part by part. memories that is being engulfed by darkness. love that is torn into petals But suddenly i can see clearly. Everything was so dark. It is so quiet. Like i've lost my ears. Nothing. I cannot even hear my own breath. Neither can i feel any pain. My Shadow is slowing fading into the sinking darkness. My fear grip me hard enough. So as to kill me. What was left behind. Is just the hopes and faith. That lay side by side with love. That i once believe in... And i once hope for to have...
-Sharalyn Z.  | LOVED! | Dec 9, '09 9:01 AM
for everyone |
  YES! that's right! i love him! my baby! brandon jj! baby, i cannot do without you. psst! darling, 12/12 is a nice date right?! *winks* | loved~! | Dec 7, '09 12:37 PM
for everyone |
we not a couple. but we behave like one love each other. heart exchange to protect. promise to each other to be there every time. names is given. phrases are said. i've fall for you. just like how you do. my dearest boy <3
| hey yo! | Dec 5, '09 9:22 AM
for everyone |
got an irritating sister that i wish i hadn't had her. :D yeah. serious. =P
you believe me? :D
whatever, okay? i dont care also :DDD hahaha! * if being alone was my fate, i will accept it willingly. even though being alone, will feel depressed and emo. and will also let me have a flashback of the past, Heart break, watery eyes, hatred, all grow within me. i cant help it but i was always left alone somewhere behind.
** thgt today you all can see in my formal wear, thgt today you all will come to my sch EOGM, thgt today can go home with you all. but everything seems to be an illusion. something just went wrong. everything that i wanna happen, always never happen. and those that i didn't expect to happen has happen. due to some circumstances, all wasn't fulfilled. i feel so down. like an anchor was drop down to the bottom of my heart. like i lost my only support. ):
*** Tonight the moon was no where to be seen, no where to be found. its like being engulf by those dark cloud, being over-whelmed by the darkness at night. without the moon, werewolves are less fearful. without the moon, vampires are less powerful. both will become weak and wobbly. feeling giddy and heavy within. Where is the moon? is it eaten by the horrible monster up there. who want to destroy all werewolves and vampires on earth? for i feel the weakness in me. giddiness and heavy.
- today everything just seem to go wrong. ):
**** What is LOVE?
LOVE is...
Learning to accept
Other person other than myself while
Visiting
Each other hearts.
Love is blind, Love is sweet, Love is awesome, Love is strange, Love is pretty, Love is challenging, Love is expressing, Love is giving, Love is caring, Love is memories. Love is shelter, Love is faithful, Love is miraculous, Love is weird, Love is illusion, Love is femine, Love is gentle, Love is protection. Love is EVERYTHING JUST TO ME.
***** Tell me your feels, For who is true. That way you look, As she walk past, For i can see, She's your everything. Love is there, Just in the air. Time will flies, Every second now. For me and you, To once again, Fall in love, With someone special~!
****** A thing you say, You mean no harm. But the thing you sad, Have hurt someone. Bruised and scarred, Up within. Traumatised, Is what come next. Once its done, It all done. Even if you want, If can't undone. It will be there, Left as a scar. In the precious heart, Of the someone tough, That you thought she is. Stuck for life, Its lies there till her grave are dug. As he left for the darkness world, All will too go with her. By that time, You might not know. That you have hurt, Someone else, So deeply, Till it cannot be erase.
******* That boy over there,That boy whose name start with 'A'. Nopes, its not Alex,
Nor is it Alson or andrew. Its Ash; Ashraf. A for Ash; Ashraf.
I first saw him in ice meeting, Sat next to me. Was the one who say HI to me, And i replied in a shy tone.
As times goes by, After meetings and meetings, And outing and bonding, Which was done together as a whole.
We grow closed to each other, Prepared for camp. Bonding, preparation and actual camp. We gave it our all.
We stay as one, Ash and me, Just like the rest, Is how we are.
Ash is one, The only one, Great kind of friend, That you can ever have too.
Cheerful as he seem, Fun is the way he's named. Love and concern, He have it all.
You see him smile, From day to night. He cheer you up, When you're feeling down.
This kind of friend, The one and only. There no 1st, When you prized him 2nd.
I'm blessed to have a friend like him. So much fun and laughter always. Remember him, His name is Ash; Ashraf.
A is for Ash, A is for Ashraf. A friend that you must have, A friend of mine.
******** From the first time when i know you,I know i like you. Cause i cant lie to my heart, So i have to be truthful to it.
I love to chat with you, Always hope to see your name there. Even though i know i'm bad in english, I'm totally fine with you correcting me.
In a blink of an eye, Time really past fast. Just by thinking of it, We know each other for severals months.
Boy, if only you know, How much i miss you. How much i wan to chat with you, And how much i want to know about you.
But because we lived to far apart, Nor do i have your address. Its hard for me to contact with you, So very hard.
Everyday, Day by day. Hoping to see you sign in, But you didn't.
Five to six months later,
School started for me. And you moved houses, From texas to california.
You seldom online, I cant chat with you. But today, my wish came true, You left me a offline message.
I'm so happy, More that just happy. I hope to see you online again, Then we can chat once more.
Till now, i still miss you. Boy; if only you were here. (:
********* Bloody Kiss Skellington
Given From That Girl
That Girl The Vampire
The Vampire From The Secluded Castle
Living All Alone
All alone inside there
With No One Beside Her
And How She Hope To Find A Companion
That Is For Life....
That boy over there, That boy whose name start with 'A'. Nopes, its not Alex,
Nor is it Alson or andrew. Its Ash; Ashraf. A for Ash; Ashraf.
I first saw him in ice meeting, Sat next to me. Was the one who say HI to me, And i replied in a shy tone.
As times goes by, After meetings and meetings, And outing and bonding, Which was done together as a whole.
We grow closed to each other, Prepared for camp. Bonding, preparation and actual camp. We gave it our all.
We stay as one, Ash and me, Just like the rest, Is how we are.
Ash is one, The only one, Great kind of friend, That you can ever have too.
Cheerful as he seem, Fun is the way he's named. Love and concern, He have it all.
You see him smile, From day to night. He cheer you up, When you're feeling down.
This kind of friend, The one and only. There no 1st, When you prized him 2nd.
I'm blessed to have a friend like him. So much fun and laughter always. Remember him, His name is Ash; Ashraf.
A is for Ash, A is for Ashraf. A friend that you must have, A friend of mine.
Sharalyn(: dedicated to him, as he ask me to create a poem for him. hahaha. From the first time when i know you, I know i like you. Cause i cant lie to my heart, So i have to be truthful to it.
I love to chat with you, Always hope to see your name there. Even though i know i'm bad in english, I'm totally fine with you correcting me.
In a blink of an eye, Time really past fast. Just by thinking of it, We know each other for severals months.
Boy, if only you know, How much i miss you. How much i wan to chat with you, And how much i want to know about you.
But because we lived to far apart, Nor do i have your address. Its hard for me to contact with you, So very hard.
Everyday, Day by day. Hoping to see you sign in, But you didn't.
Five to six months later,
School started for me. And you moved houses, From texas to california.
You seldom online, I cant chat with you. But today, my wish came true, You left me a offline message.
I'm so happy, More that just happy. I hope to see you online again, Then we can chat once more.
Till now, i still miss you. Boy; if only you were here. (:
Sharalyn(:
As the day goes by, Its start to change. Although this changes cant be seen, It can be feel within me. Lifes is stirring up, Feelings is mixing round, Studies is juggle about. Friends is all around, But why do i feel so alone? Quiet as it seems, Calm as it looks. But inside of me, Wars and rampage is going on! The old battle isn't over, And the new battle has arise. Holding it down wasn't easy. Nor was it to maintain the peace. Struggling to survive wasn't an easy thing to do.
As the days goes by,
Time slowly swallowed my feelings. Bit by Bit, I can no longer feel anything. Mmy heart is numb,its handicapped. I can no longer differentiate between happy and sad, And angry and bored. Cause my heart slowly die, When so much have happen. Time can no longer heal me. The wounds i have are too many to be counted. I'm gone, Just like that. Before you can say or imgine anything. | up. | Oct 16, '09 2:32 PM
for everyone |
don't raise my hopes,
then kill it immediately.
i will die in an instant,
but i'll still wish upon a star. slowly, day by day.
its increasing.
doesn't seem to be going down.
so close yet so far.
tell me everything.
wanna ba happy,
but can't.
there are some things that i rather not know about!
but since i know it.
i'm getting hurt.
you're in a relationship already.
but i'm not.
waiting for you,
how long can i go on like this?
happy to be next to you,
but jealous of the girls that you hang out with.
i fon't have the right to restrict your rights to be with the girls.
i'm sorry,
its just every girls's nature.
i dont know when i cant let you go.
cause its kinda hard now.
i'll try. but i dont think it'll work..
i'm here,
just right here.
Right where i wanted to be.
i like you.
but you like her.
her feeling is unknown.
but i know yours.
its hard to tell whether you have any for me.
but i'm having a hard time.
i wanna cry everytime you talk about her.
but i cant voice it out.
you have to handle your problem.
so am i.
just like you.
this have happen before.
i hate it,
i'm scared that it might happen again
i pray hard everyday,
for it will never be true.
but its too late.
it has alraedy happen
i'm helping the guy to get the girl,
AGAIN!
and i'm here standing where i am.
i shed tears for you,
cause i know you're never mine.
i don't want you to know my feeling,
cause i scared you might avoid me,
like what have happen to me before too.
there are so many things that happen to me before.
i'm such a noob.
i just cant handle such stuffs.
i tried to hold you back.
but i failed.
i tried to let you go.
And i failed too.
so sorry.
this is a emo post.
My feeling for you will be invisible to you. i hope you never know about my little secret.
this secret will not be reveal to you.
i hope you wont blame me.
but i just dont want you to know.
did nth today luh.
stay at home..
so boring...
then i use the lappy.
And clifford say my that unregistered english name
sound so malay.
does it??
i dunno lehx.
i wanted a unique and pretty names.
but they are all common.
those that is not common are those
ugly and not nice one.. sad sia.. lol! i damn bored arh..
dun feel like blogging already. BYES BYES things was somehow changing,
just like how the earth revolving.
you were not mine,
like i am not yours.
even though i always pray hard for it,
but it end up going to somewhere else.
i was like a fool,
always got cheated.
but i never learn my lesson,
cos i dunno what to do anymore.
i paint my fingernails black,
coloured my heart black.
gonna ignore this world,
cos you'll never become mine. | date | Sep 20, '09 1:28 PM
for everyone |
20.09.2009 is just over. here i gonna make another wish and hope it can come true. (: hahahahaa..
serious, but true.
he is the secretary of ICE camp IV
always sitting next to me.
but we didn't notice it.
he too stay in the north area,
i asume.
and our sec sch are just next to each other.
hahas.. he's older than me still.. hahas..(:
Crayonn
Even though, it doesn't seem much.
But to me, its a great thing.
What i wish for,
Just came true.
Twinkle Little Star,
Thanks for granting my wish.
I will still continue to make my wish upon you,
Please be my friend and grant it for me.
woke up at 11plus today.
cook brunch for siblings.
then used laptop.....
mum ask me to cook dinner.
staying at home is so boring.
then i receive a message from clifford.
he's looking for ppl to come out town to slack and walk walk.
But i have to prepare dinner.
so i can't go.
then ask him to ask me out again another day.
hahas.. LOL!
so now, i'm stuck at home.
needa prepare dinner now..
YELLOW is the colour now. I WISH, I WISH, I WISH......
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<3  
sometimes, i really dunno why.
i dunno why my eyes become teary.
i'm not sad..
nor am i in pain..
but why am i crying?
is it the soul in me is crying?
but why is it crying?
because of my past wounds?
or becuse sth bad has happen already?
i hate this feeling.
i hate to be crying unknownly.
When my eyes become teary suddenly,
my heart, mind doesn't feel good.
its like someone has broken my heart again..
 hoping you're mine.
that's why i always make a wish
on the 1st star i see every night.
Hoping that one of the star will hear my wish,
and help me make it come true.
"Star light, star Bright,
First star i see tonight,
I wish, I may.
I wish, I might.
My wish will come true tonight.
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Star Light, Star Bright.
Thanks for listening to my wish tonight.
I wish, I May.
I wish, I might
My wish will come true tonight. " 他给我的伤痕也就是我的第一个伤痕。
就在他离开我的那一天，
我的心好像被他一起带走时的。
而我只剩的只是一个不能感受到爱的心。
时间已不能治好我心中的伤痕了。
就连一段新的恋情也无法治好。
反而会因为这个伤痕而渐渐的消失。
我的心已无法对线上爱做出任何承诺了，
只有眼前爱才能打动我的脆弱的心。
可是偏偏，
我得到了我不爱的人的爱，
而我爱的人往往不属于我。
自己已无法得到梦寐以求的爱情了。
我先在只希望能够全心全意地谈恋爱。
从新振作起来。 | Poem #07 | Sep 15, '09 11:02 AM
for everyone |
Like a star that he would shine,
When i look into his eyes.
His tall build just shock me all,
just like what i'm looking for.
Silky smooth hair that he have,
Swish and fly when wind goes by.
Though he is a chinese man,
But he look like English man.
Lovely as he seems,
Just like how he is... FINALLY!
SOMETHING SWEET, BEAUTIFUL STRUCK ME.
 i know sth like this will struck me.
and this is a totally random one. (:
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Sharalyn Z.
a very simple minded girl that never fail to keep everything inside her.
turning 180 in vampires years!
its like a world of illusion here.
my Black Carnival!
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